Both Sides Now

 Hey Daryl,

A while back I saw a video clip of Joni Mitchell at the 2022 Newport Folk Festival. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxiluPSmAF8

She sang Both Sides Now. I haven't heard that song in years. It was so touching, I became emotional. At first I thought it was because there was so much love and support for her from the audience. While that is true, I realized the song made me think of you as most everything does these days. 

First it was a few key words that made me think of you. Ice Creme, canyons, clouds, sun, rain, snow, win, lose, moons, Junes, real, love, laughing, give, take, illusions, tears, fears, proud, dreams, schemes, life, changed. 

Then I listened again and again and found key phrases that struck me and made me think of you even more. 

  • "So many things I would have done, but clouds got in my way."  
  • "And if you care, don't let them know. Don't give yourself away." 
  • "Tears and fears and feeling proud to say, I love you right out loud." 
  • "Dreams and schemes and circus crowds I've looked at life that way."  
  • Now old friends they're acting strange and they shake their heads and they tell me that I've changed 
  • "Well something's lost, but something's gained In living every day."
  • "I've looked at life from both sides now"
  • "From win and lose and still somehow"
The end of the song says- It's life's illusions I recall I really don't know life at all.

My thought is, you've experienced both sides now. I imagine the end of the song doesn't pertain to you. You already had so much figured out, but now it's clear. I'm looking forward to when "every fairy tale comes real"

Until then, 
"I love you"
Karla 





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